“There ain’t no sky today.”

When I was a child, the sky was always blue. Even on cloudy days I knew that the sun was somewhere out there, behind the clouds and that sooner or later it would appear again. The world seemed so simple and dreams came true if you really believed. I had a carefree childhood, when I didn’t have to worry about the future, and didn’t have to think about work or school. My parents were always there and did almost everything to make me happy.

But as I grew older I began to see the world differently. I learned that not all dreams come true and that sometimes people lie, betray, and leave. For the first time I felt that the sky had become different. At some point, I even thought that it was gone.

When you grow up the brightness of color is lost. Life is getting more complicated. My world changed when I moved abroad. At that time I was 14 years old. Life becomes much more difficult, especially when half a year later I found myself in another country without my parents. I couldn’t get used to the local mentality and other things. Because of this I had a lot of panic attacks and also depression. I constantly quarreled with my parents because at that moment they put a lot of pressure on me. You understand that even the closest people can fail to live up to expectations and the world is not at all arranged the way you imagined.

But as a rule, after the rain, the sun’s rays always break through the clouds. And then you understand that the sky didn’t disappear anywhere, it was always there, it is just sometimes hidden by different circumstances.

I can’t get back my childish naivety, but despite that I can learn to look up, even when it seems like the sky is gone. Because it’s always there, you just have to believe that the clouds will clear.