“I’m just trying to figure out how to function in this chaos.”

When I took my head up from the desk, I started feeling dizzy. Something was not right. I lost my most precious things. Suddenly I couldn’t get access to information. I didn’t have my sound proof from the world. And that’s what my chaos is: my phone and my headphones disappeared. I searched every pocket on me, my bag, my computer bag, and nothing. And also there’s nothing around my neck. I’m just trying to figure out how to function in this chaos.

I asked my classmate to call my number, expecting to feel something vibrating, but the “unable to call” prompt just put out my last hope of finding those things.
That’s gonna be a problem, the feeling of losing two of my most precious things keeps staying in my mind, stirring my brain and messing up everything inside.
And I should be happy when I hear someone finds them, but I feel even more uncomfortable. It’s not that they were all broken, but something even worse.

My chaos continues:

“So let’s talk about why you’re sleeping in the study hall.” The teacher says.
“The study hall teacher took these when you hid your head into your arms and fell asleep.”

She’s spinning a pen with her finger, and said “And you remember that just two weeks ago, we had a conference about how to be a good student. And NOT SLEEP ANYWHERE IN THIS BUILDING.”

I sat in the chair in her office, and could feel my shoulders dropping like a broken doll. It’s true that I didn’t expect that things would become as big as this. My chaos continued to grow.

Soon she stops talking, and sends me to work, to write from my heart – true chaos. I know she will come back soon, so I start to write. It feels silly to me, even though it makes me laugh. Soon the chaos is shrinking.

I can hear the footsteps, which means what I want is coming. Could the chaos disappear? All the things I wanted are in her hand. Chaos is going to end, as soon as I put my headphones on my head, and swipe my phone.

I have my headphones on. My phone is in my pocket. My brain stops stirring, no longer messed up inside, the chaos is gone.