I’m just trying to figure out how to function in this chaos.
How to function while I am the axis of the earth,
Watching all inhabitants rotate around me.
Around,
Around,
Around.
Again,
Again,
Again.
A mass of screaming color
As I stand a stiff grayscale.

I’m just trying to figure out how to function in this chaos,
As I struggle against weightlessness,
Against falling into orbit among the stars,
While my dazed body
Remains feet planted
Solid,
Solid,
Solid,
On the ground.

I’m just trying to figure out how to function in this chaos,
How to dodge
The fiery, burning meteors,
Asteroids,
Comets.
My mind is dizzy
From twisting
And turning
And avoiding
And focusing
And trying,
Trying so hard.
To do All
At once.
And maybe also
From lack of oxygen.
From the strain
Of trying to breathe,
Of trying to force my lungs to expand
When they are so opposed to the idea.
I did not know it would all be so hard.